I am struggling with myself

I know what is good and what is bad... I know I have it good.

I know my family is doing well and I am really happy...

with that should come a sense of happiness and I find myself happy but unresponsive to the happiness...

I am in some kind of funk, and I want to get out of it... I need to do some fun stuff...

Ernie has booked us to go to a giants game, and I am going to ride my bike over the golden gate bridge and I am going to ernies family wedding...

I am going to see Brynn and hug her so tight she will think I am crazy. I am going to run around the block with Jonny and Ellie.

I am going to start a newborn crocheted blanket for baby speck.. my new little baby ..

I am going to visit my grandma when I am on vacation the middle of june for one whole week. I am going to visit my mom and bead, and drink, and bead some more.

OK... I am tired.... :) but full of happiness...